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Aug. 8th, 2032

resolved, battle

Asch the Bloody at ad_libitum_rpg

WARNING: Asch is a massive walking spoiler for the Abyss plotline, ending included. Don't read his journal unless you don't mind spoilers!

Affection
Concrit
Forming a Party
Permission Meme
Status


Ðone wudu weardaþ wundrum fæger
fugel feðrum strong, sē is Fēnix hāten.
Þǣr sē anhaga eard bihealdeþ,
dēormōd drohtað; nǣfre him dēaþ sceþeð
on þām willwonge, þenden woruld stondeþ.
-The Phoenix

Dec. 15th, 2029

defeat

Old Music Box

 


Feb. 26th, 2011

zetsuboushita!1/pain

VIDEO DUMP

A glass marble was dropped...Collapse )

Oct. 3rd, 2010

srs bsns/calm

[SKIT] a n00b in the forum!!!1

[For anyone with hologram technology, there is the burst of an image of a scarlet-haired, green-eyed youth prodding at something in front of him, presumably in an attempt to work this shiny new technology.]

How do you make contact with a summon spirit?

{OOC: Apparently Nahlan's contact with Ouin has gifted it with some higher tech communication abilities. For anyone in a place that has cross-continental contact, namely with this small town, feel free to respond.}

Feb. 18th, 2010

calm/emo/reminiscent

[Private, then public] One Year Later

Private bit, I guessCollapse )

[Also there is a brief letter completely separate from this entry, which happens to be on Yuan's desk.]

I haven't been sent back, but I'll be away for a while. I'll send back the missing guild members if I see them.

--Asch

Dec. 10th, 2009

calm/emo/reminiscent

[OOC] Random Facts

tl;drCollapse )
 
 
 
resolved, battle

{OOC} Quotes

From the gameCollapse )



From famous peopleCollapse )

Nov. 29th, 2009

hoshi-, hoshi

[Private] Troubles

...I can't regret what I've said or done. I don't, and I knew that telling Arietta the truth would cause problems. I warned Ion about that, thinking that he'd have to deal with the brunt of those problems, but it looks like they came back to haunt me too. Serves me right, I guess, but it wasn't wrong. She had to find out.

Anyway, Arietta hasn't done anything, but I'm going to keep an eye on her. She was on Van's side, even though she was manipulated, and since Tear, Jade, and the reject killed the Liger Queen, she might try to take revenge. And if not...she still might do something stupid, and in that case, it'll be my fault. Since I was the one who told Ion to tell her the truth, I'm partially responsible for whatever happens next.

Damn it. Now that I have to stay in Blessenwood, the idiot just had to show up. I'll accept him as more than just a replacement, but that doesn't mean I have to get friendly with him. He's annoying regardless. Even so, he'll be useful to Ad Libitum. Looks like we might have to work together again. Good thing there are so many people from Auldrant. He can go busy himself with all of his friends who have been summoned.

I knew he'd show up here sooner or later, but it's not as if I was excited about it. Now I've had to deal with all of this "twins" crap. Don't insult me!

Hell if I care. He can go bother Yuan or someone. I have better things to do.

...But I should think about transferring to another branch. I'll see how things turn out at the meeting and then make my decision.

Nov. 16th, 2009

annoyed/fuming

[Private; Difficult to hack] Just Some Updates

[Asch was a bit careless in putting this away, given his haste, but his entry is still relatively hard to access. One would have to enter his room during his absence in order to find it. Asch does take care to lock up when he leaves an empty room, so one would probably have to either try to read it in Ion's presence or break in.]

I had another one of those weird dreams last night, but I don't remember much of it now that I've been awake for a while. It might have been like the ones from before, but it's hard to say, since I don't really remember much about it. I just know that I woke with a start in the middle of the night. It must not have been that bad, since I fell asleep soon after.

I was looking through this journal recently and found some strange entries...I don't remember writing those or even seeing them, even though I do remember writing things between then and now. I wonder if that happened because of the negativity. Now that they're visible, I guess that means I'm really feeling better--no more of that idiocy from earlier. I've started sleeping again at night...maybe a little too much.

Back to the entries: My first instinct was to rip them out and burn them. They're weird, since I didn't really write them. One of them was written in my handwriting from my childhood...but I never wrote that entry at that age. And one of them was from Eldrant, around the time those soldiers attacked. It's not like I would have had the time to write that even if had wanted to bother with it in the first place--

[Some ink is spilled across the page. It also happens to bleed through onto the following pages.]

This mutt's a nuisance to keep. I should have never let the Fon Master bring him back! There's fur everywhere, and this morning it was sleeping on my Maestro Robes. I'll talk to the Fon Master about it later, but for now, I'm just going to try to shut it up somehow...It's barking, and I heard someone yell at it to be quiet. That wasn't directed at the wolf...

[The entry is cut short here. Asch must have had reason to end it abruptly, as it also happens to be shoved in the place in which he normally keeps it.]

Oct. 31st, 2009

hoshi-, hoshi

[Public, I guess..."Hackable," rather] Some Festival

There’s some festival going on. I wanted no part of it, but Arche wouldn’t have any of that. She claims that she won’t drag me to any more stupid events like this if I accompany her to this one and let her wear my uniform as a costume—They aren’t toys! Those are the robes of a God-General!
...I shouldn’t have said yes. I doubt she’ll keep to her word about that, but at least I can hold her to something. Besides…I almost struck her down a while back, and she still came for me after that… She was one of the first, too…
I’ll go along for a while, but I have better things to do.
Except that she’s wearing my uniform. I have this “costume” that I’m going to wear, and I have that thing…If she ruins my uniform, that leaves me with nothing to wear once the festival is over.

…Damn it!
I’ll look for a spare tomorrow, since it might be useful to have one. Washing my uniform has been a pain at best.

 
depressed, guilty, uncomfortable

[Semi-private] Aftermath

[Private-ish; Asch is taking advantage of his Ancient Ispanian again, and he'll probably discard this message sooner than later.]
I don’t really know what to say…I can’t believe that many people actually came, even some who barely knew me, if at all. I know most of them probably just showed up because Jade asked them to or because Ad Libitum was down a melee fighter, but…I-I heard and saw through the eyes of the negativity. I don’t want to rely on anyone else, and I don’t want my self-worth to be based on someone else’s approval…But I did appreciate it. Ever since I was a little kid, I’d thought that Van was the only one who appreciated me, who needed me for who I am, not just my name or title…I figured out that he was just using me, but at least he didn’t replace me…I guess I’m glad I’m more valuable than just that.
Tear was right. As a soldier—no, in general—I shouldn’t have behaved like that. To think that the negativity was trying to make me be like him…That’s even more insulting than what happened seven years ago. I’d be lying if I said the negativity gave me those ideas that I spouted. I know that that idiot is the favorite and that his friends probably want him more than they want me…but dying and letting him take my place? Hell no! I’ve had a death sentence all my life, and I’ve never liked it. Now that I’m free to live, I’m not going to give up that easily, not like that. I would have rather taken down that negative bastard by myself, but I’m satisfied with how it ended.
I thought I had put all of that behind me, first when I took the name “Asch,” and later when I lost the duel…Looks like I still have a ways to go. I wonder if I won’t be able to get past this unless I confront that replica idiot again. I…I left the rest to him when I was dying, but like hell I want to see the bastard again. I guess it can’t be helped. I’ll try to tolerate him if I see him again.
I guess what I’m trying to say is…thanks and…sorry.

Like hell I'll ever tell them any of this.
[End of Ancient Ispanian, since it's a little harder for him to write in, compared to this language, and he doesn't care as much about snooping people discovering this bit. It is, however, written in Fonic Script out of habit.]

This won’t happen again.


 
 

Sep. 19th, 2009

smile

[Public] Geez!

I was really acting like an idiot, wasn't I? I can't believe I actually sounded like that! Well, everything's better now. I know I was wrong about everything, and I'm going to do whatever I can to make it up. I'll...I should do something to prove that I'm going to change. My hair is pretty long...maybe I should cut it.

I've gotten some sleep, so I think I can go on a quest without many problems. Tear said Kratos doesn't want us wandering off alone. I guess that means I'll have to form a party. Man, what with how I acted, I wonder if anyone will actually say yes? I'll just have to prove to them that wasn't me...Or that I'm not the same person. I wonder what possessed me to draw my sword last night?

It's my fault...I don't know if my apologizing will help at all, but that's the first thing I can try. I'll promise if I have to. I'll even pinky swear.
zetsuboushita!1/pain

[Public--don't expect any responses, though]

[Date Smudged]

...I lost to him. I was supposed to be the one who would go on...But I told him that I'd acknowledge him if he defeated me.

I'm envious of him. He has an identity...I used to be so sure of who I was, but I lost mine years ago. I thought that maybe if I defeated him, I'd be able to reclaim that identity, but...[Something unnaturally dark has clouded a few lines of writing.]

Where did I go wrong? It's clear that Luke had the right idea. He has friends who will him when he dies...He's to blame for Akzeriuth, yet he's a hero to Auldrant. It looks like, despite everything I said, I was the pathetic one. If I had time, [More lines are unnaturally unreadable.]

Not that it matters. I can tell my "Big Bang" will take place soon. I wonder what it's like? It's bad enough knowing that I'm going to die soon...I'm assuming it'll be by fonon separation. I'll disappear, and everyone will forget me. I guess that's why Luke's there...I really don't want to die...Not now, not like this. I think I can finally start moving on, but it's not like I'll have time. I knew before entering Eldrant that I wouldn't make it out alive.

That's it. I have nothing else to say. There are a bunch of smallfry here. They're no match, but it's not like I can get out of this trap room on my own. I'll survive as long as I can, but I know it's in vain.

[There's a massive blood stain. It looks and smells like blood, yet Asch is clearly uninjured. Also, despite the fact that it's deep enough that it should have soaked through onto several other pages, it only mars one side of a page. Is this really a journal entry that Asch wrote? Or is it a narration of his past? ]
 

Sep. 18th, 2009

annoyed/fuming

[Public, then not-so public]

I just got back from what was supposed to be a solo quest. Somehow, it turned into a party of three. And somehow, I was forced into living with the Fon Master. Bringing Arche on quests is a bad idea...Though it could be worse. I haven't seen Anise around lately...if she's here and she finds out, she'll be a nuisance.


[The rest is in Ancient Ispanian--with fonic script, of course. Good luck deciphering.]

Asch really doesn't want you to read this...and chances are, you can't.Collapse )

Sep. 13th, 2009

pissed/fighting

[Private] The Next Encounter

[Once again an abnormal entry.]

Rem Decan 25, ND 2018

After moving to Daath, I assumed that I'd never see that dreck again. For seven years, I haven't had to put up with him, but today, I found him in Malkuth of all places. We the God-Generals had been assigned to grab Ion, who had fled Daath during a riot a few days earlier. Apparently a man by the name of Jade Curtiss was behind the kidnapping, and Mohs demanded that all six of us had to go find him. Van told us to go along too, which was strange: Those two have opposing viewpoints most of the time. It sounds like the two maybe want Ion for different purposes. For now, though, if Van says it's okay, I'll have to go along with it. I know he's probably just using me for some plot, but I do agree with what he's told me. I also want to crush the Score too, so I'll have to trust him.

...But first, I want to crush that impostor. When I first saw him cowering from a weakened footsoldier, I was disgusted. I already saw him acting like a baby when I last went to Baticul, but I expected him to grow up a little since then. He had no business fighting if he couldn't understand the concept of kill or be killed! It's appalling to see just how pathetic the "Light of the Sacred Flame" has become.

I took him (and one of Mohs' soldiers) out in a single attack, but Legretta stopped me from killing him. I wanted to put him out of his misery, but she wouldn't have that. Infuriating!

...I thought I wouldn't have to deal with him...or with my past...ever again. I'm beginning to think this won't be the last time we see them.

[Smear of ink]

Damn it, they escaped. He'd better run back to Baticul because the next time I see him, I won't be as merciful.
depressed, guilty, uncomfortable

[PRIVATE] Sick?

[This entry resembles the previous entries more than does the last one.]

It's been strange, but for the last week or so, my head has been aching. It's not Lorelei or its idiotic scion, so I'm wondering if it's something normal. I've been trying to sleep better, but I keep on lying awake at night for hours...I think I might have rested for a few hours last night, but the time I spend asleep has been decreasing each day.

I wonder if I'm sick. I mostly feel fatigued, even though I can't rest.

It doesn't matter. It's not enough to slow me down on quests yet. I'll have to get as many done as possible before it does.


I thought I had put my past behind me, but it's been haunting me more often lately. When I do sleep, I have to relive the days in which I became the charred remains of the "Sacred Flame." There's no need to write about that. I remember too well to need a written reminder. The dream starts out with the patch of sunlight, but every time, I wind up seeing some of my encounters with Luke.

...No wonder I'm not sleeping.

Sep. 7th, 2009

zetsuboushita!1/pain

[Private] My Return Home

[The handwriting in this entry looks unique--the letters look like Asch might have written them, as some of the characteristics matched. However, the dexterity of the author might have been weaker at the time that this was written...To the point at which the handwriting almost looks childlike. Despite this, the ink looks fresh, and it isn't written in the Fonic Alphabet.]

Ifrit Redecan 28, ND2011

I'm not sure how long it's been since I came here...I tried to keep track of the days, but I lost consciousness from some of those tests...It could have been hours, or it could have been days. I was kept underground, far away from any natural light. What I did know was that I did not belong here--I belonged home, where my family was waiting for my return.

I couldn't have been replaced. My family wants me. I am the Scion of Lorelei and the future King of Kimlasca--I am an important person to my country. They couldn't have...

Those were the only thoughts that drove me. I had to fight off monsters. I even boarded a ship ilegally illegally, only to get beaten up by the crew. I hurt so much that I just wanted to drop to the ground, but I forced myself to continue. I knew my family was worried about me.

...And yet, when I showed up in Baticul, the White Knights guarding the front gate refused to acno acknol acknowledge me. I couldn't believe they wouldn't even hear me out. Dirty or not, I looked like Duke Fabre's son! Would I not look dirty after being kidnapped and thrown in a dungeon? I had to climb over the manor's stone walls (I ended up falling into the bushes on the other side) to get to the place where I belonged.

Now I see them with that thing. We have the same face, but that defective copy has the mind of an infant. He just ran around, tripped, and sobbed over it, and yet Mother, Father, the servants...and even Natalia think that their "Light of the Sacred Flame" has returned to them.

Is my name and face all that matters to them? That impostor acts nothing like me! Now that I've come back to the place where I belong, I have nowhere too to fit in.

I thought I had a great future and a family who cared about me. Now I see how much they care about me as a person.  I can't stay here...I think I'll go to Daath. That man kidnapped me, but...he needs me. Me, not the replica. He replaced me, but then again, maybe it's for the best. It's not like they care about me anyway. But he does! He has to! If even he doesn't, then who does?
 

Aug. 25th, 2009

calm/emo/reminiscent

The Order of Martel [PUBLIC]

{Asch's journal was somehow mixed in with some library books. It was returned to the inn for him to pick up, but until then, read away, though Asch might not like that.}

Of all of the people summoned from Auldrant, only one of them isn't part of the Order of Lorelei. I wonder why Martel is so specific about it. Maybe that's why she chose the original...

So far, there's Tear, Fon Master Ion, Anise, Dist, Cantabile, and me. Only Dist and Cantabile bother me. Dist will help as long as he gets something out of it. I already know that he doesn't really care about what happens to the world as long as he can fulfil his own sick plans. I'm guessing Cantabile won't get in the way either. She just bothers me because of a bias.

I'm worried that if Martel follows this pattern, she'll summon more God-Generals. Arietta shouldn't pose much of a problem, since she's loyal to Ion, but the other three might cause trouble. I'll have to keep an eye out for them. Or worse yet, what if Mohs shows up? At least Dist was competent enought to become a God-General. Mohs has only stayed in power because he's corrupt, and he leads the people around with that damn Score.

...And if summoning Van would be counterproductive...though if she did, maybe that would explain why she chose me. That idiot faced against him in Auldrant, and I would have to fight him here...not that my abilities would be necessary here. If that were to happen, I'd have to tell Tear. I really wouldn't want to, though. It's not as if we're friends or anything though she is one of the people I dislike the least here, but I wouldn't wish her to go through that sort of hardship again...But it's not my place to hide something like that from her. If she's strong, she can deal with it. If she's weak, she should know to stay back or die.

Martel should just leave Daath alone for now and summon Natalia someone from a different world. Jay said no one else from the Legacy had shown up.

Oh yeah. It sounds like Jade has been missing for a while now...not that I really care. At least he can keep Dist busy...maybe even convince him to cooperate with Ad Libitum. I can't say I'm friendly with him or any of the other God-Generals, but I admit that he's not completely worthless.

In the meanwhile, I'm going on a quest. I didn't request anyone join me, so it should be a solo mission. It's not like Ad Libitum will force anyone into my party.

Aug. 7th, 2009

pensive

Dreams and Encounters [Pseudo-private; Easier for people with whom he's talked to find this]

{OOC: Most strikethroughs are legible, but the first one can only be deciphered by natives of Auldrant.}

I'm practicing writing in alphabet used here in Atlas...It looks weird. I prefer the Fonic alphabet.


I had a dream the day I came here:
From the sky came a single ray of light that was making a small sunny patch just large enough for one person.
It was the place where I belonged. I don’t know how I knew, I just did.
When it built up, I was in the light, in that little patch of sunlight just for me. It was warm, and though I was alone, I felt at home, like I was finally wanted or welcome. There was no need to find anyone. I was happy to bask in the light.
Then, all of a sudden, the light faded, so I started to search for another patch. No matter how far I traveled, it just seemed to get darker and darker. Finally, I was in total obscurity. I didn’t like this, not one bit. I couldn’t even see my hand in front of my face: It was as if everything had vanished, and with it, so had I.
I fell to my knees—that was the only way I knew I was on solid ground. All of a sudden, there were loud growls coming from all around. I tried to move away, but I couldn’t. My body wouldn’t respond, no matter what I did. I started to fall, but then someone caught me. It was warm and bright…and safe too. It was if a voice was telling me, “It’s alright, Luke Asch.” Then, it became brighter. I don’t know if it was the person or the sky, but something made an even brighter patch of light until it was all I could see.
The next thing I knew, I was waking up by the World Tree.

I really need to wash these clothes…And sew them up. My tabard is in terrible condition. I think I’ll—never mind!

I’ve had that dream a few times then. It always starts out the same, but once the patch of light fades, something different happens. Usually I wind up dead or alone in the dark. One time I found myself inside Fabre Manor again, except it was abandoned…And when I looked in the mirror, I had no reflection. Even if I didn’t see my own reflection, I would have expected to see someone else looking back at me. At least I didn’t have to see that moron’s face…That’s what I’d like to say, but even he would be better than an empty mirror. That’s even more freakish than he is!

… At least I can use my right arm again. I hated asking for help, especially since Tear already had to heal me a while back, but I knew that I wouldn’t be able to get away from that. Besides, my arm was getting in the way. I’m sick of relying on people. First Tear, then Jay, and then Tear again. I can’t believe I’ve become this much of a nuisance! I…I don’t like having to thank people, but I do owe both of them. Jay likes spying on people—he’s on his own there. He likes to hang out at the inn. Maybe I’ll give him free dinners or something. Tear…I don’t know what she likes. There’s that dreck and Van. I wouldn’t be able to get either of those if I wanted to. A lot of girls seem to like cute things, but Tear’s a trained soldier. I doubt she’s into that sort of stuff.
Forget it. This is why I like working alone. Dealing with others is just a nuisance. Besides, I need to wash up my tabard and sew up the holes that the behemoth put in my uniform…
I ran into a weird animal (Natsu-Natsu or something) called Paneer. I’d never seen her before, but she recognized me. Apparently there’s an Asch living in her world of Granide. That was weird to hear. It sounds like no other world has doubles of any one person. I wonder what happened with that place. I wonder if anyone else has a double. Apparently there’s an Ad Libitum guild there too, serving the same purpose it does here. There’s also some person called a Descender who’s supposed to show up during times of need. Maybe that’s just her world…But maybe Martel is using us as substitutes for a Descender. Maybe if the tree can and will produce a Descender, Martel will send us back. And I still don’t get why the hell No. I’m not even getting into that.
These blood stains are really bothering me more than they usually do…
I’ve gotten so weak recently. First the Oracle Knights, then the behemoth. I’m going to train in the woods, but I wonder if I should find a sparring partner…Though right now, I want to focus on investigation too. There’s too little information right now, and my sitting around like an idiot isn’t helping. I don’t have that many leads…There’s the Descender…and that older civilization that Tear mentioned. Both sound like library material.
Damn it, at least last time, I had access to Daath’s library—does this place even have a library?

Oh, yeah, I found an old recipe in the back of a drawer in my room. Maybe I’ll try it out sometime…I just have to keep this away from Arche. No good will come of giving her a recipe.

Recipe: Croissant
Ingredients: Flour, butter, milk, egg

Now I really need to get going with those chores!

Jul. 25th, 2009

suspicious/annoyed/embarrassed

[SKIT] Trying to impress?

{OOC: All the cool kids are doing it. Anyway, takes place at the blacksmith's place. Anyone is welcome to pester him.}

I found this silver ore a while back--what was I thinking? I don't know that much about this sort of stuff... [Stares at it methodically]

You refine it by heating it in a furnace...I think. (Maybe I should have just bought refined silver instead...)


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Jun. 24th, 2009

calm/emo/reminiscent

Stupid...[Private]

[The handwriting in this entry, while similar to that on the previous pages, looks more crooked or lopsided.]

...I can't remember the last time I wrote with my left hand. Father and Mother forced me to use my right hand early on, so I was punished for using my left hand. This looks like my replica's--Luke's--handwriting, now that I'm looking at this chickenscratch. It's sad that he can't write more neatly. I don't care if he's seven or eight. No doubt he was forced to write soon after he was taken to the manor.

This is sad. I'm a seventh fonist, and yet I can't even heal myself. Maybe I should ask Tear to teach me...No, I'm not going to embarrass myself like that...But it's also embarrassing having to stock up on gels and bandages. I'll manage to stay afloat for now, but I won't long enough to wait for these injuries to heal.

But I shouldn't have come back to my room in the first place...I haven't been awake for more than an hour or two since that battle with the behemoth. I was tired, so I decided to rest for a few minutes, but then I woke up a couple hours later. When did I become such a weakling? I shouldn't have lost to that monster, and I should be handling these injuries better. They're nothing compared to the ones I had back in Eldrant.

Maybe that's the reason. I...I could have sworn I'd died back there. I mean, I must have survived because when I started to wake up, I was in someone's arms, and there was a hyperresonnance...Then I woke up here.

I wonder if he showed up here too...He's the heroic one. I really hate to admit it, but Martel should have been more interested in trash like him. But that's stupid. He would have gone to Blessenwood and been all over Tear. And Tear wouldn't think he's dead.

I've tried to contact him, but there's no response...I can't see what he's seeing either. He must be in Auldrant with Guy and...Natalia. Why'd it have to be those two? Why did Martel have to bring over that bastard Jade anyway?

And I wonder what I should do about him and Anise. It's not like I want to get friendly with them or anything, but they were kind of useful to have back in Auldrant...when that dreck didn't screw up, that is. Well, it's not like we're fighting against Van anymore, so it doesn't matter anymore. And it's not like I can talk about Ion to Anise. There's no way she'd believe it if Ion's kidnapper blamed her for his death. Not that I've even captured him recently, but if she doesn't know who I am, then she must not have witnessed the destruction of Akzeriuth...which means back where she came from, the God-Generals must have captured Ion or that idiot..or that guy from Kaitzur. I asked Arietta to take him hostage, didn't I?

But none of that matters! I still need to find the parents who sent me on that damn mission. I still don't know if their idiotic kid made it back safely.

Apr. 15th, 2009

humph/nag

Homesick [Private]

Dammit, these people don't leave me alone! I don't want to meet the new members. I don't care who they are as long as they don't get in the way. I'm not here in Ad Libitum to make friends. I'm here to find a way home. I want to see Natalia. I promised her...I didn't think I could keep those promises, but I'm still alive today. This is why I hate promising. Things change too much, and I can never keep them. That's why I want to at keep to my word at least once. It's my responsibility to her.

But for all I know, she could be married. I'd never interfere, but I can't say that I'd be happy with that. It's not like any of that matters now. I'm stuck here anyway. For all I know, I might not get back for years. If we ever get back or at least survive this place.

I've been too friendly with Tear. We happen to have the same goal, but that's it. She's useful because she's trying to get back to Auldrant too, but she's with the replica.

I told him I'd accept him if he defeated me. I still don't want to call him Luke. It's not like I'm going to go by that name anymore. It's been too long...but it's still my name that he's been using. At least he defeated Van and released Lorelei. I was supposed to do that. I was dying anyway. I was the one Van needed. Damn thief steals everything from me.

Well, none of that matters anymore. I've been focusing on the past for too long. It's not like anything will ever change, so it's a waste of time worrying about it. It's like the last time. I can no longer live the same life I've been leading. But this time, if I want to return everything to the way it was, I'll have to focus on my new life here. I still can't forget everything that happened. I'd say that I need to change a little, but then I'd sound like that idiot...but maybe he had a point and I'm the idiot. Not that I'd ever mention that aloud.

...but that doesn't mean I'll start making friends! I don't care if people think I have an appalling personality. If they don't like it, that's their problem, not mine!
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Mar. 29th, 2009

pissed/fighting

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The weak should stay back!Collapse )

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Mar. 16th, 2009

suspicious/annoyed/embarrassed

{No, Asch, Luke is the emo character. Now go sit in a corner and angst} [Private]

What's with all of these kid mages that suddenly showed up? Dammit, I didn't join Ad Libitum to become a babysitter! At least they'll stay out of the way if they're casting spells.

Anyway,  I'm glad I found someone from Auldrant. I would have rather run into Natalia, but finding Van's sister Tear was better than finding no one. It's not like I couldn't handle the situation myself--The first thing  Van taught me was never to rely on others--But she's the one tie I have to Auldrant right now.

Well, Yuan made Tear gather Blessenwood's Ad Libitum members. I thought it would have been important because he wanted everyone, but it turns out this group is puny. The hell does he think he can accomplish with Ad Libitum? Maybe the World Tree did choose certain people...but then if that were the case, Luke would have come here, not me...He beat me. To think the replica surpassed the original...

...But I must have survived for a reason. Maybe sticking with the guild will help explain everything. All of it is hard to process or even believe. World Trees? Mana? What are they supposed to mean anyway?
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Mar. 10th, 2009

calm/emo/reminiscent

Ad Libitum [Private]

Huh. That quest wasn't as pointless as I thought it would be. Shaking hands to initiate members, huh...? They'd better not make all of us do that. Not that I'll recruit anyone.

So...once this...whatever it is I was dragged into is over, I'll be sent back to Auldrant. I wonder if time will have passed. If that stupid replica failed, I might not have a home to return to. Then again, when did I have a home? I sort of established Daath as home, but that was only because Van needed me...

Maybe I'm better off staying here. I can't stand some of the cheezy antics I've seen in Ad Libitum, but...I think I'm needed here. Besides...I have a bad feeling about this...

Dammit...My wounds reopened a little...Ungh. I have other things to do today, but I think I'll have to rest. I hate being this weak...I guess I'll have to take on simpler (or at least less active) jobs. But what else can I do...? I guess Natalia liked my cooking (then again, saying it's better than hers isn't saying much...) so I could try that.

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Feb. 18th, 2009

smile

Relations Thread (Semi-OOC)

{OOC: This will be written from Asch's point of view, but it's an OOC evaluation--Asch isn't taking notes. He just has opinions in his head. Also, UNDER CONSTRUCTION. If you don't have a funky table, you haven't been forgotten. I'm just gradually searching for the threads. Also, if I've forgotten a thread, just let me know.}


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defeat/sleep

Ugh...[Accessible to anyone who can read the fonic alphabet]

...I think I need to get a job...

I don't know how long I've been staying at this inn, but...I think I'm in debt. After waking up near a tree, I found a path leading toward a village. I don't remember much of what happened next. The blood loss was getting to me. Next thing I knew, I was laying on a bed in what turned out to be the local inn. Someone bandaged my injuries at some point...I don't know if it was me or someone else. Some of my stuff was scattered around the room, so I must have been somewhat conscious at some point. For the next day or so, I was too disoriented to do much more than sleep.

Today, I finally found out more about this place. I was feeling a little better, so I explored the town and looked for a way back to Daath or Eldrant. As soon as I mentioned those places and some recent events from Auldrant, someone told me that I must have "come from the tree" or something. Supposedly this place is called Atlas, and people from other worlds have been showing up near that large tree. I had assumed I was transported to that tree through a hyperresonance, but it sounds like it might be something else. I still wonder if this is just a hoax...but I don't know...It sounds like it makes sense, like that cat that talked to me in the alleyway when I got dizzy.

Something else came up more than once: Ad Libitum. It's some guild in the town, apparently run by these other "otherworldly" people. The members go on quests for the townspeople. One person assumed that I was a member, and another told me that I might want to ask them for help.


[The pen slips, leaving a long line of squiggles, which eventually turn into a long line.]

[Asch suddenly awakens after beginning to nod off.]

Dammit. I need to buy more gels too. I hate being this weak, but I need to be able to walk if I want to make enough money to pay the innkeeper and buy the gels.

...I'd better not have to ask Ad Libitum to run my errands. No, I refuse. I'm not that weak!

Right. I'll try to find a well-paying job tomorrow morning.
 
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Select Party: Asch (Magic Knight)

[Current Location: Western Continent
Notes: Traveling with Arche Klaine; may do local quests without her but probably won't leave her behind without good reason.
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Humph. This had better be worth it.
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Feb. 9th, 2009

bashful

{OOC} Permission Meme

Threadhopping with this character?: Usually. Of course, you can usually tell whether or not it's allowed in log threads. If there's a private thread that you want to join, I ask that you contact both me and the other person (or people) involved before you try anything.

Backtagging with this character?: I suppose. If you want to reply to something that wasn't one of his most recent threads/entries, I ask that you contact me first.

Hugging this character?: Depends on the person. If he likes someone, he may begrudgingly let that person hug him. If he dislikes or doesn't know someone very well, he may very well shove them off of him. Anyway, you don't need my permission to hug him, but don't hug him if you don't want him to react badly.

Giving this character a kiss?: Again, depends on the person, but most likely, no. You will tell whether or not you have his permission by his reaction ranging from a bashful blush to defenestration forceful prying away and markedly decreased affection, assuming he had any fondness for the person to begin with. There will probably only ever be one person at a time who has Asch's permission/will make him adorably awkward...As for my permission, I guess I don't mind a peck on the cheek--just note that he may get angry, especially if he doesn't trust or is starting to accept your character. But ask me before your character tries to make out with him. The answer will probably be no, unless he is in a relationship with your character.

(Something more intimate?): Erm...Methinks that's a no. This is a good time to tell you that my absolute limit is fade to black, not only because of the rules of the roleplay, but also because I don't want to RP any graphic sexual content. On top of that, Asch isn't ready for that sort of intimacy at the moment. Even if he was in a relationship with someone, he'd probably be a bit awkward and unwilling if someone was trying to get him into the mood. If he does ever decide he wants to, though, know that it will be entirely off-screen.

(Relationships?): You may know that the answer lies in the rules of this game: "4. If you wish to carry out any sort of relationship with another character, you must have the other player's permission." Since it says "any," one-sided relationships count as well. My answer will depend on characters' relations among many more things. Methinks Asch needs to at least think of someone as a good friend, if not an invaluable comrade before he is in a relationship. Also, remember that, based on canon, he has been in love with Natalia for years. It is possible for him to move on, but as her tentative/former fiancé, he will most likely feel horribly guilty if he has any feelings for someone else and may not act on them to begin with. I have thought of reasons for him to move on if the situation is right, but keep in mind that getting Asch into a relationship takes time.
Also, keep in mind that I, the mun, am extremely cautious about relationships, so trying to force any of my characters into relationships is not a good idea. Katana's affection levels go down in that case.

Punching this character (provided they can fight back):
Sure, but he may hit back.

(Injury?): Ask me first, but as you can tell, I'm not very merciful toward him in that aspect. Asch can be reckless, and although he is very competent in battle, he is not invincible. Keep in mind that rape and disfigurement/dismemberment are automatic nos.

(Death?): I really like playing Asch, so killing him off would not be in my interests.

Is there anything you do not want mentioned near this character?:
I can't think of anything I don't especially want to cover, but he has some subjects that will make him not so happy, so I warn you not to cover them recklessly unless you want trouble from Asch. He's trying to move on, but he may be sensitive to mentions of his past. If it comes up, he may go into details. He is more comfortable talking about his past than he is hearing about it first. He isn't quite as opposed to being called Luke as he once was, but he will most likely correct and/or insist upon being called Asch. However, he wants to be the one to tell people about his past, but you may need to catch him in a certain mood or situation to get anything out of him. In other words, he'll tell a random stranger or acquaintance who asks "O HAI ASCH, WUTS UR PAST LIEK?" to mind his/her own business.

Is there anything you need us to know about interacting with this character? Special physical features, fighting abilities, STUFF:
Any verbal abuse from Asch doesn't reflect my opinion toward you/your character. D: He is less unpleasant when Luke isn't involved, but he is still gruff and grumpy. Surprisingly, he is capable of being courteous or polite, having been drilled with the knowledge prior to being kidnapped as a kid. He just chooses not to use it, especially since he no longer lives a noble's life and instead has become a high-ranking member of the military. Other random things: He likes chicken and hates octopi and carrots, as his profile indicates.

Anything else, please mention here:
If you're not sure you have permission to do something, it's always best to ask first.

Jan. 9th, 2009

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{OOC} HMD and Contact

In case we don't do that meme again in the OOC community, here's an HMD thread that's available at all times. I would love to receive constructive (and not destructive) feedback about my portrayal of Asch the Bloody. If there is anything I can do to improve, please let me know.

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